Hello snowflakes!!
I can't believe it's finally over; my school life. I have mix feelings whether I should be relieved or sad about it. At least I don't have to worry about schoolwork and grades and shit (for now). Which gives me more time to update my blog (but I highly doubt it since I'm easily distracted).

Ah.
So let's talk about life as a student today.
Honestly. It's a huge achievement that I even finish school. It has always been a constant struggle, more often than not, to keep on going. Some days just hit you hard and it takes a lot of strength to get back up. And it's made harder when you're struggling to understand what you're learning. Learning isn't quiet bad but trying to vomit all you've learned on a piece of paper that determines your future, now that's scary. It has become a huge burden for students to keep their grades safe from failing because whether we want to believe it or not, grades do reflect you, or some adults think.

That aside, school has taught me a lot for the last 3 years. I have seen people come and go, people growing out of their shell, discovering who they really are. I have experienced a vast black hole in my friendship, mendable and now stronger than ever. I learned to forgive but never forget as I find it rather hard to just let it dissipate into thin air as if nothing happened. I learned to partially love myself, accept the flaws that make me, me. It's okay to fall, I tell myself, as long as I find the strength to get back up on my feet because we trip, we stumble but it would be a shame if we do not move forward. I made friends with my teachers. I discovered kindness in strangers who know me by my face but not my name. Bottom line is, I would not be who I am today if it had not been for school.

You see, school doesn't just give you panic attacks or social anxieties, it provides you with the experience you need to grow, to explore and soar. It might be hell on earth but it  is definitely going to be that part of your life that will always remain a vivid memory when you grow older.

So, to my school life I bid ; au revoir.
To my friends; I hope we do not drift apart. Even if it doesn't look like so, I treasure you all so dearly.
To my future self; don't forget who you are, who you were and who you want to be. Always keep the faith.

Well that's that. Let's just keep our fingers crossed that I will post more updates soon.

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